i will always believe.

i still cant do it. damn.

im sorry.

i fall in love with the wrong person.

i cried again.

from the day I saw you,
i really really wanted to catch your eye.
there's something special 'bout you.
I must really like you,
cause not a lot of guys are worth my time.

STAY THE SAME-JOEY MCINTYRE

Chorus:
Dont you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Dont you ever say
You dont like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
Youre better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Cause theres nothing bout you
I would change I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Dont be afraid
If youve got something to say
Just open up your heart A
nd let it show you the way

Chorus

Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
Youll make it through

Chorus

Dont change...


why isit so?

my life is so boring. without you.

back from dance. tired. super bad mood nowadays.

feel like killing some people. BASTARD! ARGH!

i almost dreamt of you. :/
i waited for u in my dreams,
jus like how i always waited for you somewhere.(:

THE SEVEN RANDOM FACTS CHAIN:

7 important things in my room:
1)bed
2)money
3)tv
4)computer
5)perfume
6)dumbell
7)fan

7 things i wanna do before i die:
1)to be a dancer
2)reach home one day to see money everywhere
3)grow up
4)turn as fat as possible
5)get married
6)have kids
7)t be with him(:

7 things i can do:
1) breathe
2)dance
3)sleep
4)cry
5)poke people
6)looking at cute guys
7)get his number

7 things i cant do:
1)breakdance
2)sing
3)scold my parents( even though i always did)
4)spend 100bucks in one day
5)run
6)speak other languages
7)t be with him):

7 words i often use:
1)HAHA
2)ma de
3)nabei
4)cb
5)pi ah
6)nehneh
7)wah lao eh

7 celeb crushes:
1) EDISON CHEN
2)JERMEY SUMPTER
3)that korean guy frm "a stairway t heaven"
4)TOM CRUISE
5)JOHNNY DEPP
6)ASANEE SUWAN
7)TONY from "ONGBAK"

7 people i wanna see doing this:
1)minmin!
2)melissa
3)prinezz
4)pris
5)rina
)emilia's friend
)emilia's friend's friends









LOL. got it from bingbing's blog. LOL.

wah lao,my mum's mad. my sis and i were fighting about the com.
wah lao. my fault ah? i waited for almost one day alr know.
shit her ah.

CAN YOU PLEASE STOP DOING THIS? IT'S DAMN IRRITATING!
ARGGHHHHH!



dont you ever wish you were someone else.

PICS UPLOADAED! :DD

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY MY PAM PAM(:

hahaha. birthdays are here. im broke. dammit.
sent max off this morning. we're gng t miss u dear.
didnt know he's so gd looking in his passport. HAHA.

thought of gng out later. but she couldnt make it):

im contented. thanks god(:

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY ANNE! MUCH LOVE- :DD

gonna celebrate her bday ltr. (:
wah lao. that bryant haven WAKE UP! he said he'll call me arnd 1plus.
ROAR.

i miss minmin ah. (:




sigh. i dont wanna know you.

okay bryant called liao. finally ah. LOL. gtg. missssssssssses.

A LOT THANKS AMANDA FOR THE PIC! (:(:(:

THIS WORLD IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR!!!

i dont like. you. you. you and you.



cos you you you and you suck.

im at avalon now. using bryant's lappy.(: oh ma god.
got angmoh ah! ROARRR. hahahaa. damn cute pls. oh ma god.

anyway, had our aop today. its was pretty good. sorry ppl for giving tht attitude. being so boosful. and so many things getting so wrong. sigh.

even i have my own troubles.



i still miss u though. :/

LIKE HELLO? I NEED PRIVACY OKAY? im alr 16. well, turning 16. damn.why can't i just have my own world? dounch yall understand wad privacy is? fliping around my room and looked at my dairy? thats RUDE. SO RUDE. I HATE MY PARENTS. even my sister! i really dont understand. ask me if u wanna know anything. FUCK `EM.

i really need someone t be there for me. well nobody.
NOBODY IT'S REALLY NOBODY!!!!
okay, maybe i didnt turn t anyone.
my bad. i kept everything t myself. my bad.

im very angry, sad, pissed.
get outta my life.
the pain just wont stop.

ARGHH. i want to die.

not feeling well. dammit. didnt go for dance. damn stress.




all about us.

its all about one sided love.

everyone's so emo.. so many things happening.
love. hatred. love. hatred.


nothing can describe my feelings now. NOTHING.
wad should i say? sad?
no, im not really that sad. im not happy either.
mind's in a mess.



miracles? fate? no one will believe until things really happen t them. isnt it?
well, all i know is that every fairy tale always ended with a kiss.

how wonderful.

i dreamt of you again. i dreamt of myself crying so badly.
for you i guess.


sounds funny. hah.

oh ma gard. thanks pris. HAHA.

jobs jobs jobs. i need jobs.

that girl is damn fucking bitchy. DAMN.

caught 'skeleton key' with pris.
its nice actually. but the ending sucks.
and this fat girl sitting behind me kept kicking my chair.
i did stared at her but that time the show was gng t end. -.-

wenta walked arnd. WAH LAO EH.
there were grps of japanese guys outside taka. DAMN CUTE CAN.
i can faint. so many big grps. after that, saw two angmoh guys.
WAH. HAHAHA. faint ah faint ah.

anw, headed back t tamp t meet suzhen.
walked arnd in tamp mall.
ate mac. den back home.


i miss you. i really do.

another day has gone, im still all alone.


imagine how wonderful it is, just t be with you.

everything happens with a reason.
so true.

lets say; why are u eating? bcos im hungry. why are u hungry? bcos ive not been eating since (for eg.) ytd. why didnt u eat? bcos ive no money. why? more and more qns.
and i like you. why? bcos there's smth special about you. why? wads so special? bcos i like the way u are. how is he like? more and more qns.



hah. thats rubbish isnt it. yeah. im mad.


i think we should be more than we are.

it's all too late.

you are not alone. (:

yeah. im happy today. (: cos in school, (: finally.


wenta SIMEI ITE open house.
its isnt that bad actually. cute guys are around. HAHA. the malays.
performances were great(:

today migh be the last day. sigh.

dammit. thought everything's over. FUCK. fuck everyone! dammit!

I SUCK. yes i suck. im useless. imma whore. yesyes.




everything's so wrong. i can't achieve my goals.

im spending daddy's money and im not even working.
why am i still living? i really wanna DIE MAN.
ARGH.

i like the song; why are we still friends by 98degree.
esp the part went,


And tell me why every time I find
Someone that I like
We always end up just being friends.

this is so TRUE.

PICS UPLOADED!



check the rest out! :DD

now i know your true colors. heh.


out with cat,kaku and julian. lionel came later.
shopped shopped.
ate marche while cat and lionel went off.

not long, wenta avl. got dance meeting. keep dragging the time man.
took lotsa pic. damn funny lah. upload soon.
still got practice ltr. MOHOHO.


why is so many things happening?! I HATE MY LIFE! YOU SUCK!

PICS uploaded! its shutterfly web. i couldnt log in imagestaion. TSK. how irritating!
i think u'll have t sign up if u dont have an account. yaya. SORRY!):


mwahs<3

im back back back. damn, AOP was fun, great, exciting!
didnt go for preview ytd. and we made it up today.
we were actually practice only today and we have t perform today. man, everything was so so so last min. but we manage t catch it. WELL DONE, SWORDARIOUS! <3 -claps-

went for the dod production BBQ. so full. thanks irene. the bbq girl. LOL.
went home arnd 10plus. joel and rei sent me home. thanks guys.i'll give u guys a treat. i promise! :DDDDD

and nowwww im back homeee. so tired. i cant upload the pics in imagestation. dammit.):

thinking of you tonight.

IM FREE FREE FREE! no stress, no nothing. finally.
i didnt sleep for one day. dammit. my eyes are closing now.
everyone was shouting, banging the doors, tables after 4. LOL. funny. FUN!

sent rika and yohan off): i miss you dearrr.
met them at terminal 1. gerry was there.as well as julian. took PICS! will upload ltr.
if only we have enough time. if only she stays in singapore.
hope you'll be back soon, rika! :DD

damn funny. im so tired now. bye people. MWAH.





i cant stop thinking of you baby.

im back! met up with my dear rika this afternoon at tamp mac.
thanks for ur help, lovely. THANKS ALOT!
saw bishen and friends.
ate cafe cartel. thanks for ur treat baby. oh my god. i owe you TWICE!
love her so much. hope she'll be back sooooooooonnnn.


i smell a rat.

this is getting too much. bear with it.



finally i dreamt of you(:

this is so scary.so many things happen.
shit.

damn. english was a tough paper. history as well. argh.

4more days t freedom babeh.
needa chiong math alr. tata. MWAH.

i dreamt of many things. i dreamt that i was a fashion designer. the model looks funny. its a ugly fat guy. i think i did too much of my art.

woke up and back t sleep.

i dreamt of my teeth dropping out. the whole row. this is the 2nd time i dreamt about my teeth. no link t my studies. but before i slept, i was somehow using my tongue t play with my teeth. maybe thats how it linked t my dream.

woke up. dont dare t slp again.

bleh. nonsense. had a headache. had bad dreams.



l i jus wanna hold u close.

I HATE HITLER LA. IDOITIC ASSHOLE. IF WOULDNT FOR YOU, WE WONT BE STUDYING ABOUT YOU NOW MAN. NEEDA STUDY GERMANY COS OF YOU. SSO FUCKING STRESS CANN! CANT YOU JUST BE A SIMPLE MAN?! NTH WILL HAPPEN T GERMANY LA. THEN WE DONT HAVE T STUDY SO MUCH LA.

sry. too stress. no offence.
i wanna cryyyy.